December 2008
Yikes.
Without tumblr for three days? OH WHATEVER SHALL I DO?! Ha, I’m nervous. My stomach keeps doing flips. Ekk. Wish me luck!
Tumblr, I love you. <3
FYI.
Your negativity, REALLY REALLY annoys me.
Oh, how I loved you 2008.
I love being able to relate to, and understand peoples sitautions perfectly. But more importantly, I love being able to BE THERE for someone. Feeling like my advice is valued, makes me so happy. Just because I like feeling needed every once in awhile. It’s a nice feeling knowing someone actually cares about me enough to want me to help them. And I’ve never really realized this before,...
By the way,
Ti Amo :)
“it’s those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a...”
“If you hear a voice within you say
‘you cannot paint,’ then by all...”
– Vincent Van Gogh.
Warped Tour 2009.
Thursday, July 23rd<3
3OH!3 A Day to Remember A Skylit Drive Alexisonfire Anti-Flag Bad Religion Bayside Big D and the Kids Table Black Tide Bouncing Souls Breathe Carolina Brokencyde Cash Cash Chiodos Dance Gavin Dance Dear and the Headlights Dirty Heads Escape the Fate Every Avenue Flogging Molly Gallows Hit the Lights I Set My Friends on Fire Jeffree Star Less Than Jake Lights Meg &...
Oh, and,
thanks for that anxiety attack.
You know what?
Whats with everyone “changing” and realizing things that are hurtful not only to themselves but others? I don’t know. I don’t want people to start thinking about leaving anymore. I also feel so sick at the moment. Soup time, I guess.
Righty-o Old Chap.
Troy bought me an iPod for Christmas. With the engraving of “Now even when I’m not there, I’ll be covering your ears” on it. It says this because when people would yell at me, or something, He’d cover my ears. So when my stepdad yells at me about how awful I am, Troy in spirit, I might add, will be covering my ears.
Hes a genius, eh? Yes.
“Now even when I’m not there. I’ll be covering your ears.”
– Troy Preston Caldwell/my iPod.
Così stanco.
Meaning so tired, in Italian. It is the day after Christmas, and I have never felt SO JET LAGGED. I haven’t left the state, what is wrong with me? I’ve spent the past two days wrapped up in an amazing camera, an amazing boy, and amazing friends. Too many “amazings” in one sentence, I apologize. I’m extremely hot, Nikki’s house is warm. Warm and toasty. It might...
Excitement.
So apparently Tumblr is growing. So many more people are using it, which is really disappointing in some ways. On January 21st, I will have offically had one for a year. And I have actually, somewhat kept up with it. Oh, I AM SO PROUD! My print should be coming in soon, I’m excited I had the money to buy that. I’ve had a lot of sinus headaches recently. I think I might go to the...
Kellie Nichole Parker.
I love you, and I will always be here for you. No matter what.
Odd.
Why do I keep posting one sentence posts? OH, I KNOW WHY. IT’S BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO GO INTO DETAIL. That’s why. There ya go.
OH NO, BAD GRAMMAR!
Seriously?
People annoy me.
“I remind myself everyday that I am only human. I’ll fall up, falter, fail,...”
– Myself.
The sad thing is,
its just going to get worse until I force it to get better.
Vis Major.
Everything I wanted to type a few minutes ago. I have forgotten. I’m going through those weird waves of depression right now. I’m seeing a doctor soon. I need to fix this before it gets out of hand. Tonights episode of Criminal Minds, was so ironic. I had just finished Identical, and the split personality disorder problem, then the episode, it was LIKE BAM. Very odd, actually....
Identical,
Surprisingly is a really good book. I’m not very fond of Ellen Hopkins, but she did pretty well with this book.
Kingdom.
I am so stupid. Yeah, extremely. That was the dumbest move ever. Anyways, I have a new addiction. Gingersnap lattes, are the most amazing starbucks coffee in the world. Not really, I rather like Pumpkin spice. I got all of my Christmas shopping done today. I felt quite accomplished. Although, I am still struggling. And I can’t talk to anyone about it. DAMN IT. Actually, I could talk to...
How I Remember You.
I am skeptical about this. Extremely skeptical. I wasn’t really at first, but I am now. Oh well, its 7:09 in the morning, and I am eating blueberry waffles while singing Kanye West. How odd. I also just told my best friend that things are being controlled by evil bananas. I’m in such a weird mood!
Merry Christmas.
Today I decided kind of what I want to do with my life. I also took the time to think about some things. I’ve really decided some things. I plan on pursuing, leaving behind, and moving past. I dwell on things too much, and its hurting me more then keeping the memories alive. They are gone. Still a part of me, but its pointless to keep sitting on them like they are going to magically...
o0oo0o0oh,
I feel better. ;] Thank you Chuck Palahniuk.
Awesome.
Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab. Punch. Rip. Stab....
Eh.
My head feels detached from my body. I can’t breathe right, and I feel awful. I need some alone time. I feel like a string puppet, actually. And I don’t know. I just realized there is only one entry in my private tumblr. Meaning, I am way behind on my venting. Who knew this little thing, can make me feel so weird. Awesome.
Whats done, is done.
Summer memories.
California. All the shows. Binary Code. Sneaking out. Almost getting raped by mexicans on a bridge. Staying up all night, and sleeping all day. Never being home. The sleepovers at my grandmothers. Late night food lion trips. The mall trips. I’ll type more as I remember them, but I am having a brain lapse. :[
Wow.
I almost posted the wrong post, on the wrong tumblr. It would have been really bad, if what I wanted to post on my private tumblr, was posted on this one. Yikes. And I am still on the hunt for a song. Jeez, I’m never going to find one that explains any of anything! Darn.
Brian Todd Stafford,
stalks my tumblr like a mad man. But I love him regardless.
HOW SILLY.
Father Part The Clouds In The Sky.
It’s really beginning to bother me. It hasn’t in the past, but it is now. Yikes.
Nikki.
SNAP! You know, I didn’t think about it until now. I can change it. We went to other places other then the demon food place. Ha, I AM HAVING YOUR BABIES WOMAN, NOT HIS. I THOUGHT IT WAS YOU. Lawlz, I love you!
And our sexytime jokes. xD
For Breakfast.
Instead of eating delicious cookies, I was stuck with waffles again. I am very sad. :[
My Grandmother.
Makes the most amazing cookies on this planet, for real. And since she is getting old, and getting much sicker, she hardly ever makes them. Well, she did for Thanksgiving, and there was left overs so I took some home in alumnium foil. Well, the other night I ate a few as a late night snack, and re-hid them because my little brother would hunt for them, and take them away from me. And they are very...
Dan, You're the Best.
I miss Mercy Mercedes days. It’s 2:12 am, you should be scared of what I may be typing. But I miss those days where nothing made me happier then sitting at a Waffle House somewhere in NC with the guys, doing dumb stupid, and beating everything with forks. Just the old days. I mean, right now my life is amazing, but I still miss all those old memories. This Summer, I promise, I’m...
Wholy Cwap.
I am lame!