January 2009
Because again,
I would like to,
Visit:
Morocco.
Sydney, Australia.
Athens, Greece.
Madrid, Spain.
Kenya, Africa.
Egypt, Africa.
Madagascar, Africa.
Zimbabwe, Africa.
Volterra, Italy.
D00d. And So much more. I’ve got lists, and lists. Of places. xD
My trevi fountain wish better come true.
“People should fall in love with their eyes closed. Just close your eyes....”
– Andy Warhol.
“Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains and I’ll blend...”
– Owl City.
The River.
I really enjoy talking to people, and helping people. It’s something I feel very comfortable doing. Like words, can be such healing tools. But I was thinking about something tonight. And something that really makes me happy. Is observing. Although it may be creepy, but I enjoy watching people, and the way they act. It’s fasicinating. Like The River in Palm Desert for instance. During...
The pros, and cons of turning into a teenage dirt...
Pro: I’M COOL! I’M COOL!
Con: I’M COOL! I’M COOL!
Goals before I leave Thomasville.
Sit on the BigChair in broad daylight.
Sit on the BigChair at night.
Put bubbles in the fountain.
Dance in downtown to Britney Spears.
Make the music video.
Roll steeple gate.
Crash the parade.
I’ll think of more. ;]
“I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of...”
– Pablo Neruda.
Problem.
I’m really terrified of needles. Even sewing is scary. And of ALL classes offered at East, I get stuck with Apparel 1. How awesome. I’m really terrified. Although, it would be extremely interesting to be able to make my own clothes, or costumes. I’ve also discovered just how big of a paranoid person I am. I pull a muscle, and freak out that its a hernia, because it felt as if my...
I'm such a girl.
It’s quite silly. Today in art, was pretty great. I’m painting a replica of one of Pablo Picasso’s abstract paintings. Its turning out nicely. I start the driving portion of drivers ed Monday. I’m not excited. Although, I get my permit on the 10th. Which is a day after my birthday. That is pretty cool considering I was so worried I wouldn’t get it on time. But its...
Hey.
X-Men; The Last Stand, is amazing.
Minus Bobby being stupid, and forgetting about how much he cares for Rogue.
Boys and their hormones, UGH.
Its always,
the same thing over and over again.
“I cannot wait to put a ring on your finger. Whether it be a promise ring,...”
– Cutecuteboy<3. We’re so young&corny :P
Pink Lemonade.
I’ve demolished a whole bag of fruitastic double bubble by myself, and I am proud. NEXT! And I still wonder why I’m okay one minute, and the next I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I’m stonger then this. I know admitting that, brought it all back. Every fear, everything. Sometimes I wish memory clearing off of Eternal Sunshine, was real. My birthday is coming up, which is a...
Watermelon.
It’s silly how big of a lie you are living.
A reality check is going to really be upsetting for you.
Give me snow, or you will die.
Carly Is Catchy: ME TOO.
Carly Is Catchy: IT BETTER SNOW.
Carly Is Catchy: OR I AM BEATING A WEATHERMAN.
Flalahafla: i know!!!!!!!!!!
Flalahafla: 1-3 inches
Carly Is Catchy: 3-4 :]
Flalahafla: ill help!
Flalahafla: =00=0=!
Carly Is Catchy: K.
Carly Is Catchy: :D
Flalahafla went away at 2: 07:16 PM.
Flalahafla: lol
Flalahafla: ill pwn herr
Ha.
I’m beginning to love anxiety attacks.
Hmph.
There hasn’t been many days lately that I’ve felt like this. Which is probably a good thing. The smallest thing set me off too. It would be great if things could just go back to normal. I think this calls for some ACB.
My God what a world you love, Indeed.
Sometimes,
I really truly wonder. Is that even healthy? I wouldn’t know. I’m so tired. I spent half the night battling with Nikki’s cat for bed space. I eventually gave up, and let her win. So I slept curled up in a ball with no covers. It was great. Just dandy. I’m feeling a little weird today. I don’t know why, it might have A LOT to do with yesterday. My head is killing me. I...
I've learned,
That you can make yourself extremely tired by doing the impossible quiz. In three days, I’ve memorized 1-70. I should really get this insomnia thing checked out. Today was okay. I didn’t do so hot on my science exam, but its alright. I’m glad I don’t have school tomorrow, since its 3am, and I am once again still awake. I was exhausted when I got home, fighting outside of...
“How do you break free without breaking apart?”
– Revolutionary Road, Tagline.
That was,
A bad thing to start thinking about. Whatever reminded me of that, thanks, I hate you. Sometimes I wonder, if what I really tell myself is the truth. Or if I am just lying to myself to feel better. What a lovely upsetting way to start day two of exam week! I didn’t fall asleep until three. But even when I did fall asleep, I was tossing and turning. I should really consider going to the...
Everything is beautiful.
I love this planet, immensley. Everything on this earth is so beautiful. It’s all such a form of beauty, I am scared I will never be able to grasp. No one understands why I have such a love for our world, But I do. This world has such potential, and God has created such an amazing environment. Everything so unique, and full of amazing facts to learn. He has blessed us all with an amazing...
So apparently,
You can’t actually “catch up on sleep.” Although, sleeping all day today; sounds good. I need to study for exams. I might as well spend this weekend doing nothing, and relaxing before I have 9825379823 anxiety attacks on Monday. Maybe my parents will be nicer if I spend an entire weekend doing fucking nothing. Yay. I’m going to sleep until 7, get up, and maybe go somewhere...
For good.
I’m ridding myself of everything that is causing me to be so negative lately. Cussing, missing church, slacking off in school, straying away from what really matters. I need to get back on track where I was before I hit a rough patch. I miss my church, and I miss actually participating in that community. I know I’ve had a lot of trouble with my faith recently, but I’ve realized I...
I've come to realize,
That I think too much, and it’s a cause of a lot of my problems.
It still bothers me.
I probably won’t be here two years from now.
I’ll probably never accomplish half of what I want.
I may never get the chance ever again, If I don’t take it now, even if it means dropping everything, and running like hell.
I cuss more when I am upset.
I really do need to go back to...
Because.
This has gotten too far back in my posts, and its hard to find. So I am reposting it!
February 9th 2009.
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Sunshine.
I was completely on top of things last night. And was in a pretty cliche mood, obviously. But whatever. I didn’t go to school today, EPIC WIN. I looked at stuff I wanted for my birthday, and hedgehogs. Since I really want one, so I can name it Jasper. I know my violin’s name is Jasper, but thats his middle name. Lancelot is his first name, duh. I’m so tired, even though I slept...
This is it.
I’ve been listening to so much As Cities Burn, that it’s depressing. But I love it so much. I’m also really sick, I’m not sure whats wrong with me, but oh well. I’m sick of all these petty arguments, I keep having to listen to from everyone. It’s annoying. My birthday is coming up though, so that is something to look forward to. Tomorrow is Nikki’s...
Oh Tumblr,
My tumblr, Oh how I love you.
Tumblr, oh Tumblr, you make my grey skies a little lighter.
Oh tumblr, Oh tumblr, whatever shall I do without you.
Oh tumblr, Oh tumblr, only two clicks away.
Tumblr, Oh tumblr, ready to allow my fingers to grace your blank pages with my anger filled rages.
Tumblr, you’re my best friend always. <3 :)
People.
Leonardo Da Vinci.
John Lennon.
Gandhi.
Pat Benatar.
Carly Simon.
Brooks Paschal.
Andy Warhol.
Anne Rice.
Van Gogh.
I’ll continue when I think of more amazing people.